I figured I would. Update that is.


I started this account up from my old one :devseiichi-chan* to start a new. I had big ideas and big plans for doing a lot of art work since I was done with college and had a job. But I find myself uninspired; I have been since before creating this account. I figured it was my old account that was doing it, looking at all the work I have done, how old it all is and how I could do so much better. But It seems to have carried over here. I feel like I have no individualized style of my own. I'm sure if I work at it hard enough I could grow, but I find myself saying, "What's the point? No one wanted to help my style grown in college, who would want to help now?" (I went to Nazareth College of Rochester, NY and they HATE illustrators there... So don't go there if you are an illustrator... They only like people who can do stupid still lives and dead trees.)

I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but it's frustrating. I went to college to improve my skills and the college I went to tried to smash the illustrator inside of me out resulting in the current situation. I know I could have transferred to a better illustrator school - like the one down the road called Rochester Institute of Technology aka RIT - but I thought I needed to stay at Nazareth so I had a better chance at getting into grad-school there. I now see how wrong I was, but I don't regret it. I did meet some awesome people at Nazareth.

It's so hard though. I love art and it's versatility. Partly why I went to school for Art Therapy. And that's why it's so frustrating. Art is a part of me and it's bothering me that I can't sit down and do art. I do little doodles here and there but never feel inspired enough to finish them. When I do finish them it takes months to do. I just wish there was someway to come out of this artists block because it's really annoying me now.

I guess I should stop being a downer and sit my ass down and draw something... Or maybe I need to do some scribble drawings... those are fun.

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